holiday starts

yeah..it's holi again. a need to look for new temp job. can't really stay on to work at the same sales job. it's really getting very boring and routine. hope to be able to get an office job. *pray very hardz* met a lost time no see classmate on my way home today. he has changed. not in terms of his physical appearance but the feeling he gave me. haha..perhaps it's been quite a while since i talked to him. *wondered if he feels the same way abt me* i wonder if i too change in anyway. talking to him makes me feel that he now got a goal in mind and is determined to achieve it. what abt me? do i have a goal? i noe i want to graduate as soon as possible but an internal conlict is aroused. should i carry on to study more. i wish to carry on but my grades don't permit me to do so as well as my family conditions. sigh..where should i go after grad? suddenly my future seems a little bleak. i need a guiding light to show me my lifepath.