worried=(

another day has passed and no news is heard about my job. worried that i can't find a temp job. *pray hard that i can get the job* if i can't, i would have to stay on to work at u.r.s which i wished i dun have to. this sales job is getting more sianz..sigh..dun like my working environment. the job seemed to stagnant and there seems to be nothing more for me to learn. sigh..gg for tuition later..

watch accuracy of death today

went job hunting again with xinyi. went another recruit express branch at tampines. haha. after the interview, went to catch a japananese movie. the movie was really good. enjoy it...been a really long time since i last catch a movie with a friend. after that, i and xinyi went to the new terminal 3 at the airport. it's really big. just wish someday i will have a chance to take a plane and go take look at the outside world. many of the pple probably see getting on a plane or even gg overseas as something quite common. but i haven got a chance to do so. the only overseas trip i have gone to was a one day tour at malacca when i was primary six. when i earn my first salary, i must bring my mum overseas. let her enjoy herself. hope this wish will come true quickly. vanessa from recruit express called to inform me of a job vacancy. hope i get the job. dun want to stay on this sales job. it's really sian. xinyi told me about our character very similiar and a good friend of hers told her that her character is very soft. i guess that friend is just afraid that she will get bullied for not knowing how to say no. i think we both believed that if we treat pple the way we wanted to be treated, we will be treated the same way. it might not necesarily be true but i just feel that one shouldn't be so calculative at times if not the life will become very difficult. i must admit i too is a person who dun noe how to say no. when i say no, i guess i am just afraid of hurting pple's feelings. i probably dun want to feel that guilt and i will rather get hurt than let pple get hurt. hmm....maybe i am just too soft.

holiday starts

yeah..it's holi again. a need to look for new temp job. can't really stay on to work at the same sales job. it's really getting very boring and routine. hope to be able to get an office job. *pray very hardz* met a lost time no see classmate on my way home today. he has changed. not in terms of his physical appearance but the feeling he gave me. haha..perhaps it's been quite a while since i talked to him. *wondered if he feels the same way abt me* i wonder if i too change in anyway. talking to him makes me feel that he now got a goal in mind and is determined to achieve it. what abt me? do i have a goal? i noe i want to graduate as soon as possible but an internal conlict is aroused. should i carry on to study more. i wish to carry on but my grades don't permit me to do so as well as my family conditions. sigh..where should i go after grad? suddenly my future seems a little bleak. i need a guiding light to show me my lifepath.