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Been some time since i blog. or could say i am simply too lazy to blog. i enjoy letting my views be heard and yet i dunno how to express my views well. such an ironic thing. People are such strange things that can never be fully understood. Yet people still tries to unravel the mystry even though they knew it would get them get tangled up more. i feel that even though answers might not be found in the end, the process of seeking the truth often allows one to see oneself more clearly than ever.
Yesterday, on my way to my friend's 21st bdae party, I can observe people's behaviour on the train. My best friend was angry of the fact that people did not give up their seats despite seeing an old and fragile old lady in front of them. She wanted to confront these people and asked them to give up their seats. But i stopped her. I was thinking that there are probably two outcomes if she does confront them. One was probably that the people get embarassed and give up their seats or the other option was that they will scold my friend for being a busybody. People are born to naturally fight for the best interest of oneself. They are often unwilling to be placed at the disadvantage. As a customer, they probably felt that since they paid the same fare as or even more than the old lady, they deserved the equal opportunity or right to get a seat. Besides, it was a first come first serve basis. All the more, they had the right to keep the seat to themselves. We all understand this fact and yet, we somehow feel uneasy or even guilt-concious to let this old lady continue to trying her best to keep her stability in the jerky ride. the guilt feeling is probably comes from the values that the society believes in which is that we shoud respect the old and care for them. this value often trigger off this guilt feeling if people disregard it. My friend was angry at the fact that even kids who were present did not give up their seatseven though they went to school and be taught the values. I was thinking it was probably no one did that so they might felt weird about giving up their seats. Humans often follow and afraid to take the first step with the mindset of fear of failure. Perhaps we should overcome this fear and take the first step. Who knows, this first step might be the door that opens to a road that is clear and brightly lit.

Monday blues

another day at work. been occupied and no time to update this blog. a lot of things happen these few days. I managed to get a office job(finally) and now embarking on this new journey. Things are always difficult in the beginnning. i think i must not expect too much in the beginning. i guess it's just my character, get worried too easily. the workplace is nice. lots of unfamilar faces. i guess all these need time to get used to. the work environment is pretty similiar to singtel. just that, my manager is just sitting in the next cubicle. Colleagues are nice people and i managed to secure a lunch kaki. at least i dun have to lunch alone. got back my results and i am happy with it. Happy will be too trival a word, i think exhilarated will be the better word to use. I had never obtained such a result before. U would wonder why am i blogging here while i am supposed to be busy working away.*smilez* that is because my account to oracle can't be used and without that, i basically can't do anything. so now waiting for my manager's reply. hope he sees my email *fingers crossed* if not, tmr i also can't do anything. i still dun noe how to use the office phone. it's hilarious right.. pple can call me but i can't call out. haha..anyway i hope no ones call. *pray hardz*phone calls are bad. it means i need to answer queries. and means i need to run ard like that time. *yucks* today got a new colleague join us. he is my new neighbour. he is a facilities director. whoo*dun play play* haha. saw him lunching alone. poor thing. makes me think of myself on 1st day of work. nothing to do now. sianz.